Ive lost 10 pounds

YIPPIE! So you know how I started working out at the first of the month well its been almost 3 weeks and I have lost 10 pounds. Im so excited only 40 more to go. That seems like alot and it kind of is. But I just feel GREAT that Ive atleast lost some weight already. Its such a good feeling and it makes me excited to loose more and work out more. YEAH Im finally doing it. I just know if I keep this up ill be back down to size my summer and then im going to the pool.

LIfe aint easy

You know sometimes I get so stressed because its like no matter what I never have enough money I work my butt off ( hard to believe because its still there). And in the end I have nothing to show for it. I hate that. I work all these hours pay the bills and if Im lucky have a dollar to my name. Do you know how much that suck? My daughter is almost one and I cant even get her a High Chair. Its so frustrating. I get angry about money I just wish I had a couple hundred extra a month that I could save up. That would mean getting a second job and never spending any time with my daughter. Its already hard enough to work what Im working but I guess will be better in the end. I need to think that would I like to sit at home and wish I had her a new high chair or work another job and get her one. Right? I dunno this is just how I feel. Ugh... Money... I wish it grew on trees.

How I feel

So I've been thinking alot lately about how I feel about myself. And to tell you the truth I'm not happy with the way I look. It's hard after having a baby and getting back to your weight before, I love having my daughter but I don't love the new me. I'm working on getting back to what I weighed when I got pregnant. And I know that alot of people say you will never look the same as you did before you had a child but Im not asking to look like I did before my baby, just what I weighed before her. I have alot of work to do.
Ive never been the type to really care what I looked like because I always felt good about myself. Ive never fit in a size 6 because that would of been nasty a girl who is 5'11" in a size 6 thats way skinny. I looked good in my clothes no muffin tops and I fit in everything I have, I always had something to wear because the stuff fit. I look back now at my pictures before my daughter and see how flat my tummy was, how small my legs and arms were. And I really never knew that I looked like that. That I was skinny, not to skinny and held myself well. I always thought differant. I now look at myself, in the mirror or a picture and I go " eww", I cant believe thats me, its sad. I cant fit in any of my clothes, I hate getting dressed. I look at other women and wish I could look like them, I have never done this, ever! No body knows how much I way and I know that people cant believe I way 225...because Im tall and it doesnt show. I was 170 when I got pregnant. And now Im over 200 pounds. Thats sick! In my eyes anyway. Im tired of looking and feeling fat, or over weight, So Im ganna do something about it. Im laying of the junk food and cutting down on the Dr Pepper ( i could say thats what my butt it made of ). Im ganna start working out 2-3 times a week to start, no matter how tired I am. And Im going to loose 50 POUNDS, by the summer time. Look and feel great. Ill keep everyone updated. Ive also posted a picture of me before I had my daughter and after. So you all can see the transfer... Wish me luck

Any Ideas

So Im very new at this blogging site. And if anyone has Ideas for me Id love to hear them. But other than that, Im glad that I finally got one. Now If I could figure it out. haha

Are first Christmas

It was so much fun having Christmas because it was are first one as a whole family. Tesla just loved playing in all the decorations even tho all she tried really doing is eating everything. We all had alot of fun. Christmas morning was way fun and I know that when she gets bigger it will be much more fun. But she was so excited to open her presents. She had no problem getting the paper off them, but Im sure you can guess, Yup thats it... trying to eat it. Laughs